My name is Stacy and I am addicted to Methadone.  I have been on it for 2 years and I go to a Methadone Clinic.  Im 25 years old and I live a really normal life besides that fact of having to drive to the clinic everyday.  I will be graduating from college soon (psychology)and I am currently unemployed.  I decided to start this blog to maybe help others in this same situation and to apparently help myself.  Im going to be blogging daily about the effects of a detox and how I am dealing with the situation.  Right now I will give you a little background info on how much Methadone I have been taking recently.  Keep visiting my blog so that you can get updates on my detox.

I was on 85 mgs before I started my detox.  I wanted to get away from methadone so bad that I told the clinic that I wanted to detox the quickest way possible which is the 21 day detox.  So I started that a couple of weeks ago.  That by the way is the “Medically Safe Way” they say.  People that get kicked out of the clinic also do this.  I told them that I wanted to blind dose, which is when they dont tell you what your dose is everyday.  I do believe that is the best way, because a really big part of the problem is in your head.  You can send yourself in withdrawals and it be all in your head, Ive done it a bunch of times.  Previously I detoxed and failed apparently but I went from 95 mgs to 10 mgs and was fine, no problems at all.  The way I detoxed then was I did 5 mgs a week.  It took a while to do that but honestly I couldnt tell a difference in my doses, I actually was still getting high off of it. 

                                                                  HOW I FEEL NOW

Well this 21 detox has not been bad at all.  Some people say if you keep yourself occupied its not as bad….well I will say I have not been occupied at all, I have had too much time on my hands all I do is sit around.  Even so, it still has not been bad.  Nothing compared to the stories that I have heard from other patients.  This detox is extremely fast and only the strong minded will make it.  I cant tell you the exact dose that I am on but I will guess that I am around 30 right now.  I am pretty sure that I am decreasing 4 mgs a day for 21 days.  I started to feel different a couple of days ago.  I am more alert now and not drowsy at all.  I normally clean the crap out of the house once a week and I did that the other day, now I clean for like 4 or 5 hours at a time too, and that night I had trouble sleeping because my body was very achy.  So I recommend if you arent very active not to do anything like that.  That was the worst day so far and that was 3 nights ago.  I havent had any problems sleeping at all.  I feel good, not great , not wonderful but good.  I found myself to be very unmotivated lately though.  I havent wanted to go to class for the past week or so.  But Im telling you it is NOT BAD right now at all and I have heard complaints from the first few days of someones detox that it is.  The thing is that you must be ready to do this. Thats why I failed the last time b/c I was not ready, I was doing it for my family only. My back is a tiny bit achy and every once in a while I feel a cold sweat come on.  Keeping it cool where you are will help with that. 

                                                                TAKE BENADRYL!!!!!

Taking Benadryl will take the edge off !  If you start to feel bad take 2 benadryl’s and lay down and take you a nap.  If you have problems sleeping take the benadryl before bed.  I also will take some OTC sleeping pills before bed too.  They take the edge off also, but dont take them at the same time ! I will take my sleeping pills at maybe 8:30 and maybe at 10:30 take the benadryl if I am still awake.  A lot of times I will take the sleeping pills and stay awake too long and the effects of them making me sleepy will wear off. They do make me sleep but what Im saying is that I will fight going to sleep and stay up on the internet or something.

The biggest thing that Im going through is keeping my mind right.  Thats the key, a good state of mind.  Dont sit there and dwell on how bad you might feel in a couple of days.  You never know it might not be as bad as youre making it out to be ! In my case that has been true so far.  You will make yourself sick that way.  If I sit here and think about every little thing I can put myself into a cold sweat.  I just did it as we speak, so stop doing that.  Have a little faith.  I tell myself when I get scared that God is going to get me through this.  Believing is another way that you can make it through this .  Well Im going to keep this blog up everyday until I have went through the detox and whatever withdrawals that I may or may not face afterwards.

JUST REMEMBER

• Be Positive
• Picture how great being free will be
• Realize that you are going to have to be a little uncomfortable at some point to get this monkey off your back
• A few days or a few weeks isnt that long for lifetime of freedom of drugs
• Take Benadryl-It will take the edge off and you will feel better
• Take it one day at a time
• Be strong, dont analyze that back ache or whatever unpleasant feeling it is

Be proud that you have made it this far !